Queen of Spades

Walking home from work on Friday a playing card blew right in front of me causing me to step on it. No other cards were around. I thought to myself, should I pick it up, or might this be a bad luck scenario that I am not aware of.

It was a Queen of Spades.
What does that mean?

so don't ask me questions, just turn the music up and keep your mouth shut

I'm proud of myself when I make it out of my apartment in any kind of social capacity these days. I've only recently become aware of the fact that I've had social anxiety pretty much my entire life. There was a brief period of time where I went out, alot. I had a few friends, we went out dancing and partying 3 nights or more a week. But that was when I drank heavily & partied & danced like a maniac.

I realize now that when i don't get completely obliterated, you have to interact with people when you go out. I'm finally understanding where my dad was coming from as a kid when he didn't want to go anywhere where large groups of people were. I just find the bar scene stressful and tiring and I don't drink that much anymore.

I used to go to more shows, but even that has become stressful. It's so intertwined with work now that it's sometimes hard for me to step out of 'on the job' and have a good time. I need to get back to shows though, it's why I chose to take the job I did. I love going to see live music and it seems like everything is working against me going these days, or maybe I am just making excuses for being lazy and not wanting to leave my house. There are a whole list of shows that I am looking forward to this fall, so we'll see what happens.

I feel like Northampton has been in a funk all summer. The atmosphere has been odd - weird energy in the air. Maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's just a combination of the poor economy and slow, rainy summer. The projects I've worked on have felt uninspired, more like busy work just to keep my fidgety hands busy while I listen to Metric or the Knife or watch Star Trek: Next Generation.

I've now lost my train of thought, so I'm going to end for now. Forgive the random blabbing, there was a point to this when I started but the chocolate stout from the Dirty Truth has gotten the best of me, and just made me tired. (how boring. ha)

Something I made + Something I bought + Something I found

I finished my 'Mighty Boosh' themed girlie hoodie. Made from a paint-covered hoodie long sleeve tee that I de-sleeved + a girlie poofy sleeved jersey knit dress I found in a free pile. I am queen of free piles. Some might call me a scavenger (Electrics! Electrics!), I call it free raw materials. I thought it right to immortalize one of the funniest shows Louie has ever turned me on to. I may add something to the front to cover up the paint stains.



Here is one of my latest finds. 'Murder is a Drag' RPG board game complete with audio cassette. Sounds like I might need to have some people over to try it out? Who is down for some clue + crossdressing?

The cutest cocoa powder shaker ever. (plus I love anything french.) It the background you can see my breadbox and new kitchenaide mixer Dad found me at a tag sale (thanks dad!). Dream kitchen here I come, all i need is a slightly bigger space.

Home-made Pizza tonite ! Since there is no more Luna :(

Keep one eye on the door, keep one eye on the bag, Never expect to be sure

I'm glad it's fall. Cool nights with the windows open, the cool air drifting in has prompted me to take the French Press off the shelf and pull the sweaters out of storage. This also means I'll be baking pretty regularly as well, as you can see by the raspberry/blueberry muffins I made tonight. I get the feeling this blog is going to be "look what I made today" and "here are some things I like"'. Isn't that what every blog is? I mean, I don't want to make claims about what this will and will not be. I like to keep things fresh and not get bored - so I might throw some movies, music and comics in here every once in awhile.

Listening to: Metric "The Police & The Private"

If wellness is this what in hells name is sickness?

So I decided (at Louie's urging) to re-start my blog. Hopefully this incarnation will be a place to bring together all the fragmented pieces of my day to day and give it some kind of cohesion. (& get me to start writing again. It's been too long.) It will not be a place where I am complaining about meaningless bullshit. I am turning over a new leaf. Minimal complaining. No more focusing on what's crappy about life. It's too short and there is lots we simply cannot change.

So, with that said, I've been listening to 'Who Killed Amanda Palmer" near constantly over the past few days. The Videos for this album are excellent. I would post one here for you but blogger is being a pain for me on the laptop I am currently on. Check out her video for 'Leeds United'
the costumes are fabulous! Perhaps it will motivate some of you to buy tickets and come out to her show @ Pearl Street 11/13 with me.