Sometimes all you need is to stay up all night.

I was not planning to go out Friday night, but Kristen is a weakness (in a great way). She said "come out and hang with us" so I did. This whole week's theme has been perfect timing. Moments when it feels like the universe is briefly in sync & all is right. I got to Diva's just as Kristen & Eric did. The line was totally insane, and I thought we would never get in. Thankfully, Kristen grabbed my hand and pulled me up the stairs through the sea of mildly disgruntled hippies. It felt like the old days. VIP all the way. Jess and Carley got in shortly after. The "sexy ninja assassin squad" was back in action (minus a few). The room was fuller than I have ever seen it. The people watching was great, although at times made me feel very old. I got very introspective, and realized it was not old I was feeling, it was maturity. Lately I have been wary about going to parties because of fear of drama, and not knowing anyone anymore. Friday night, I was with friends I love and miss. I was completely relaxed and had a great time. I didn't dance too much, i feel like I can never really get into dubstep, but the energy was great, the vibe was great, and I realized I need that kind of relaxation and release and I didn't even know it.

The other part of the night, skipping the "after party" in Hadley that was full of idiot teenagers, was great. We went back to our friends' Dave & Kate's house with a few close friends, and mixed records & played with awesome lasers and blinking lights. Nerding out with electronics all night. It was like scooping up all the best parts of my old party days, without all of the terrible stressful crap. I didn't even think that was possible.

Leila (an awesome DJ) was there selling some of her amazingly beautiful shirts and bags that she handmade. It was wonderful and inspiring to see creative art pieces selling. I've always held back and never actually tried to sell any of my crafts because I am worried no one will buy them. Granted, I make nothing that comes close to the beautiful pieces she makes, but that's beside the point. She's out there doing it.

Thursday I went to pot luck at Carly's with Jess, Luke, Kate and Andy and that was fantastic. Amazingly good food and good company. I forget how good it feels being around my friends, because I get so frustrated and upset when I am around the general public.

Slowly but surely I am interacting with the world again. Tomorrow I took off from work to go to Columbus Day tag sales in South Hadley (a new and fantastic Louie tradition). Next weekend: Boston Comic Con, and coming soon: NYC in November to see my Lindzzz.